Oh my goodness. I never knew it was possible to have so very many questions.
"I feel as if I should have more symptoms than I do. Not that I really want any, but...you know...peace of mind, and all that. I keep thinking...is Peanut still there? Is it some kind of weird dream? My cramps have pretty much gone, and my boobs aren't THAT sore..."
"I am sick as a dog. I don't think I've ever been hit this hard with a cold...it's like...the Moby Dick of colds. I have an earache, and I am nearly deaf, which, interestingly, makes everything sound like robots. My cat just meowed, and it was the weirdest thing I've ever heard! I'm soooo stuffed up, and have a cough.
What OTC remedies can I take? My doctor isn't in until Monday, and I remember she told me I can only take Tylenol and Tums, and anything outside of that to ask...What's a girl to do for three days?? Get used to this hell? Invest in Tetley's stocks? I'm not even supposed to take a hot shower, so that rules out standing in there all day every day...Even some minor relief...just make it a whale of a cold instead of a Moby Dick of a cold..."
"I know this is waaaayyy TMI, but I can't take it anymore! I just want to go to the bathroom like a normal person! The last three times I went numero dos, I was in there forever. Tonight, an hour, and I had to give up. This is pure hell. What can I do?"
"It seems that I am dreaming every night, which I never really noticed before, and they are all dreams with babies. Some are nice, but some are really weird! I can even remember them very clearly in the morning. Is that weird?"
"I have been getting crampy feelings for the last several days...almost a week. They're not severe, and they come and go. It feels like I'm about to get my period, but obviously I won't.... Is this normal? Should I be concerned that something is wrong?"
On and on the questions come. I was beginning to get the hang of being pregnant, though. Finally I have made it to the point where I can even say "I am pregnant" without feeling weird.
Sunday, February 20, 2005
Wednesday, February 09, 2005
Telling everyone else...
We went and told my parents on a Friday night. My mom kept looking at me funny, as if to say..."What are you doing here?" I know she could tell something was up. Plus we had gift bags.
I made up little gifts for them. For my mom, I put together a little set with an "I love my grandma" bib, tiny socks, and a pacifier, and I had a tiny diaper that came with a magazine I picked up at the doctor's office, so I threw it in.
For my Stepdad, I got him a "I love my Grandpa" bib, and for my sister and Joe's brother, we bought blank bibs and I painted "I love my Aunt" and "I love my Uncle" on them with fabric paint.
On Friday night, we got my sister to come home (no small feat, so we told her we had a present for her...bribery usually works, lol!) We showed up unannouced, and before my sister, at my mom's. When she saw gifts in my hand she immediately started with the "What's this? Why are you bringing presents?" stuff, so we told her and my stepdad to open them at the same time. When my mom got it open, she looked inside and immediately her face screwed up and she started crying. My stepdad followed suit. Then my sobbing mother started shouting "My baby's having a baby!!!" and ran over and hugged me for an hour until I couldn't breathe. My sis came, and my mom didn't want to give anything away with her red eyes, so she ran into the bathroom and locked the door. She came out a few minutes later, and said she had SUCH a cold. My sister looked at her, and said "But you were fine this morning...?" So I gave my sis hers, and she did the jumping-screaming-running-knock-me-down-crying thing. It was great. All in all, an evening I will never forget as long as I live. Right up there with the night I went over to show them my brand sparkly new engagement ring. But better.
For Joe's mom I did up a gift just like my mom's, and took it over on the following day. When she opened it, she just jumped. Up and down. Up and down. Screaming, crying....Jumping some more. It was so funny. Wish I had of gotten them all on video. It would have been amazing to watch later on! John was really happy too, and hugs were shared all around.
All in all, everyone is really really excited. I couldn't have asked for a better response from anyone.
Life is beautiful.
I made up little gifts for them. For my mom, I put together a little set with an "I love my grandma" bib, tiny socks, and a pacifier, and I had a tiny diaper that came with a magazine I picked up at the doctor's office, so I threw it in.
For my Stepdad, I got him a "I love my Grandpa" bib, and for my sister and Joe's brother, we bought blank bibs and I painted "I love my Aunt" and "I love my Uncle" on them with fabric paint.
On Friday night, we got my sister to come home (no small feat, so we told her we had a present for her...bribery usually works, lol!) We showed up unannouced, and before my sister, at my mom's. When she saw gifts in my hand she immediately started with the "What's this? Why are you bringing presents?" stuff, so we told her and my stepdad to open them at the same time. When my mom got it open, she looked inside and immediately her face screwed up and she started crying. My stepdad followed suit. Then my sobbing mother started shouting "My baby's having a baby!!!" and ran over and hugged me for an hour until I couldn't breathe. My sis came, and my mom didn't want to give anything away with her red eyes, so she ran into the bathroom and locked the door. She came out a few minutes later, and said she had SUCH a cold. My sister looked at her, and said "But you were fine this morning...?" So I gave my sis hers, and she did the jumping-screaming-running-knock-me-down-crying thing. It was great. All in all, an evening I will never forget as long as I live. Right up there with the night I went over to show them my brand sparkly new engagement ring. But better.
For Joe's mom I did up a gift just like my mom's, and took it over on the following day. When she opened it, she just jumped. Up and down. Up and down. Screaming, crying....Jumping some more. It was so funny. Wish I had of gotten them all on video. It would have been amazing to watch later on! John was really happy too, and hugs were shared all around.
All in all, everyone is really really excited. I couldn't have asked for a better response from anyone.
Life is beautiful.
Friday, February 04, 2005
Informing the father that he will be...well...a father!
I was kinda waiting for an opportune time...see... I was gonna tell him one night after a get together, but we kinda got in a fight. So I had to save it. The following morning, I was determined to tell him. He took a shower, and that tends to wash away icky moods as well as dirt. Meanwhile, I wrote him a note.
The note said...
"Hi Daddy,
Mommy is pretty sure that I will be seeing you sooner than we thought. Probably sometime in early October.
I will be the best anniversary present Mommy could ever give you.
See you soon,
Love
Baby Gomes
p.s. I can’t wait to learn to skate with you."
He came out of the shower, and I followed him around the house for a bit, trying to gather my nerve. I was shaking soooo bad when I finally gave it to him. He looked at it for a while, and then he said "What do you mean, 'Baby Gomes'? Are you...." and I said "I think so", and then he cried and cried with me. I gave him the test in a little box, and then he cried some more. We sat there and talked about it for a long while, both still in a sort of happy shock. Finally we decided to go do something. He took me out to the book store to buy "What to expect when you're expecting" and ANOTHER HPT because I still couldn't believe it myself. It was a digital one, and it came up with a great big "+" which was such a joy.
He was so happy. Thank God!!
I took his doctor's appointment that Thursday to have it 100% confirmed, as if 5 positive tests were not enough. After talking with Dr. Marcovitz for a bit, and telling her about my positive tests, she congratulated me, and said a positive is a positive, so I am preggo. Then she took blood and told me that her office would call me Friday just to confirm, and give me numbers, which they did. It was true, but not yet real.
The note said...
"Hi Daddy,
Mommy is pretty sure that I will be seeing you sooner than we thought. Probably sometime in early October.
I will be the best anniversary present Mommy could ever give you.
See you soon,
Love
Baby Gomes
p.s. I can’t wait to learn to skate with you."
He came out of the shower, and I followed him around the house for a bit, trying to gather my nerve. I was shaking soooo bad when I finally gave it to him. He looked at it for a while, and then he said "What do you mean, 'Baby Gomes'? Are you...." and I said "I think so", and then he cried and cried with me. I gave him the test in a little box, and then he cried some more. We sat there and talked about it for a long while, both still in a sort of happy shock. Finally we decided to go do something. He took me out to the book store to buy "What to expect when you're expecting" and ANOTHER HPT because I still couldn't believe it myself. It was a digital one, and it came up with a great big "+" which was such a joy.
He was so happy. Thank God!!
I took his doctor's appointment that Thursday to have it 100% confirmed, as if 5 positive tests were not enough. After talking with Dr. Marcovitz for a bit, and telling her about my positive tests, she congratulated me, and said a positive is a positive, so I am preggo. Then she took blood and told me that her office would call me Friday just to confirm, and give me numbers, which they did. It was true, but not yet real.
Thursday, February 03, 2005
Peanut's Journey Begins
One day in January, I made an appointment with Joe. I wanted to discuss when he would like to start thinking about a baby. I made a lovely dinner, and we sat down at the dining room table. I put my Josh Groban cd on which I find soothing, and lit the candles. Funny, but our most productive, insightful, and significant conversations seem to have been at the table sipping coffee after dinner. I think it seems to be that way because there are no other distractions from television, etc. Nothing to do but talk. Well, this time, since we know that we were there to discuss something huge, neither one of us could think of a good way to start the conversation. It was like sitting down to dinner with an entirely new person...I felt ackward, and I could tell that he did too. Finally I brought it up, and we got down to a nice serious discussion. I made the interesting point that it usually takes several months to get pregnant, 6 being the average, so if we got started right away, we might be pregnant by the summer with a baby due roughly the following spring...well over a year away. Sounded like a good plan to Joe, so on January 16th, 2005 we agreed to not be as careful as normal.
A couple weeks later, I mentioned to Joe that my boobs were sore, which is highly unusual for me. I thought maybe it was just because my period was coming, so I dismissed the idea...Joe, I later discovered, immediately began researching the symptoms of pregnancy based on my comment. Maybe Joe knew before I did...how's that for crazy?
On January 27th, I was on my way home from work and decided on the spur of the moment to buy a HPT. 'Maybe,' I thought, 'just maybe there is something to this sore boob situation.' I felt like I was being silly and wasting money, but I really didn't have anything better to do, so I went home and stared at the box, trying to decide whether to use it or not. Finally, I decided to POAS.
.
"Hmmm. Well. I think I see something, but what is it? What does it mean? Is a faint line just nothing? Or is it something important? Maybe the test just shows that it's working by having a faint line like that..." I sat there for a good while just staring at it. I felt anxious, excited, but mostly terrified out of my wits. What if it's positive!!! OMG...What if it's negative??? So I consulted my dear online friends over at Married Woman.
"Help me out here, cuz I can't tell what the heck this is. I've been all over the internet looking for answers, and I just seem to get nowhere." I posted the picture above, and waited. It seemed like an eternity, but the responses began rolling in...
"Looks like a very light positive to me. How late is your period?"
"I see a very faint second line so it looks like a positive test to me. :)"
"I see a very faint 2nd line as well. Could you see it at all before you took the test?? If not than looks like a positive to me! "
"Looks like a positive to me!!!I am thinking that Joe did not think it would happen this fast, LOL..."
"Ya, if it's early, and you haven't yet missed a period, then your level of Hcg isn't that high yet, so that's why the line in faint... BUT, looks like you are pregnant girl! I'd take a second test in a few days and defiantely see your doctor. Congratulations :D"
"I can see a line. And a line is a line, so I would think congrats might be in order! I had a very faint positive... the first time I tested... I felt this compulsion ot test a million times... lolMaybe get another test and test with your first thing in the morning urine. "
I posted that I had purchased a box of two for just such an occasion. ;)
"Congrats! Tell us how your hubby takes the news! Here's to a happy nine months!!
"Well Congrats to you!!!! Looks like my first 3 tests!! Hehehe I just kept taking tests not believing what I saw! I hope everything goes great for you!!!"
"That's exactly what my first test looked like. It was unbelievably faint. It should get darker tomorrow and definitely darker the day after that. Perhaps wait a day and test Saturday with the other test just to confirm.But I believe congratulations are in order. You must be the first October mommy."
"Wow!! I agree some congratulations are in order!! Looks like your NTNTC [Not Trying Not to Conceive] worked!! "
"Very cool, congrats....that's some serious swimmers your Hubby's got!"
"A line is a line. thats how mine looked and I have Rylar as proof.
a line is a line
congrats
enjoy the next 10 months"
"Why can't they make a pregnacy test that screams - girl you are so pregnant. Your test looks just like mine did. I even called the 1-800 line to be sure and I was told a line is a line. Girl you are so pregnant. Congrats to you and DH. "
On and on the replies came in...I was still chicken. I couldn't get excited yet. What if it was wrong? Besides that... Seeing a possibly positive test...it's such an overwhelming thing. You really don't know how to take it. I decided the best thing would be to take the other test on the Friday morning.
"Good God. I'm a mess. I'm happy...(I think), but mainly I'm terrified right now! I can't stop shaking. What if it's a bad time in our lives? What if DH isn't happy? But then I look at that gorgeous pic of Michette with her beautiful baby, and I think...could that be me down the road? I don't believe it right now. I don't feel different...I think I should be sick, or something. 'The girls' aren't even that tender today. Ok...I'm rambling, and I am not making sense. "
So many wonderful people were supporting me and cheering me on. How could I not feel completely, insanely, doubly blessed? It looked like my life was about to change.
I figured it might be a good idea to tell Joe.
A couple weeks later, I mentioned to Joe that my boobs were sore, which is highly unusual for me. I thought maybe it was just because my period was coming, so I dismissed the idea...Joe, I later discovered, immediately began researching the symptoms of pregnancy based on my comment. Maybe Joe knew before I did...how's that for crazy?
On January 27th, I was on my way home from work and decided on the spur of the moment to buy a HPT. 'Maybe,' I thought, 'just maybe there is something to this sore boob situation.' I felt like I was being silly and wasting money, but I really didn't have anything better to do, so I went home and stared at the box, trying to decide whether to use it or not. Finally, I decided to POAS.
"Hmmm. Well. I think I see something, but what is it? What does it mean? Is a faint line just nothing? Or is it something important? Maybe the test just shows that it's working by having a faint line like that..." I sat there for a good while just staring at it. I felt anxious, excited, but mostly terrified out of my wits. What if it's positive!!! OMG...What if it's negative??? So I consulted my dear online friends over at Married Woman.
"Help me out here, cuz I can't tell what the heck this is. I've been all over the internet looking for answers, and I just seem to get nowhere." I posted the picture above, and waited. It seemed like an eternity, but the responses began rolling in...
"Looks like a very light positive to me. How late is your period?"
"I see a very faint second line so it looks like a positive test to me. :)"
"I see a very faint 2nd line as well. Could you see it at all before you took the test?? If not than looks like a positive to me! "
"Looks like a positive to me!!!I am thinking that Joe did not think it would happen this fast, LOL..."
"Ya, if it's early, and you haven't yet missed a period, then your level of Hcg isn't that high yet, so that's why the line in faint... BUT, looks like you are pregnant girl! I'd take a second test in a few days and defiantely see your doctor. Congratulations :D"
"I can see a line. And a line is a line, so I would think congrats might be in order! I had a very faint positive... the first time I tested... I felt this compulsion ot test a million times... lolMaybe get another test and test with your first thing in the morning urine. "
I posted that I had purchased a box of two for just such an occasion. ;)
"Congrats! Tell us how your hubby takes the news! Here's to a happy nine months!!
"Well Congrats to you!!!! Looks like my first 3 tests!! Hehehe I just kept taking tests not believing what I saw! I hope everything goes great for you!!!"
"That's exactly what my first test looked like. It was unbelievably faint. It should get darker tomorrow and definitely darker the day after that. Perhaps wait a day and test Saturday with the other test just to confirm.But I believe congratulations are in order. You must be the first October mommy."
"Wow!! I agree some congratulations are in order!! Looks like your NTNTC [Not Trying Not to Conceive] worked!! "
"Very cool, congrats....that's some serious swimmers your Hubby's got!"
"A line is a line. thats how mine looked and I have Rylar as proof.
a line is a line
congrats
enjoy the next 10 months"
"Why can't they make a pregnacy test that screams - girl you are so pregnant. Your test looks just like mine did. I even called the 1-800 line to be sure and I was told a line is a line. Girl you are so pregnant. Congrats to you and DH. "
On and on the replies came in...I was still chicken. I couldn't get excited yet. What if it was wrong? Besides that... Seeing a possibly positive test...it's such an overwhelming thing. You really don't know how to take it. I decided the best thing would be to take the other test on the Friday morning.
"Good God. I'm a mess. I'm happy...(I think), but mainly I'm terrified right now! I can't stop shaking. What if it's a bad time in our lives? What if DH isn't happy? But then I look at that gorgeous pic of Michette with her beautiful baby, and I think...could that be me down the road? I don't believe it right now. I don't feel different...I think I should be sick, or something. 'The girls' aren't even that tender today. Ok...I'm rambling, and I am not making sense. "
So many wonderful people were supporting me and cheering me on. How could I not feel completely, insanely, doubly blessed? It looked like my life was about to change.
I figured it might be a good idea to tell Joe.
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