Update

Do you want the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth? Even if it's icky? Well tough. You're getting it anyway.

I am constipated, and I don't like Metamucil or the fancy cookies, so I don't have them as often as I should. Then I get all mad at myself, and swear to never put myself through the constipation ordeal again. So I buckle down and take my Metamucil like a good kid for a while, but it's yucky. So then I don't take my Metamucil like I'm supposed to...and the whole thing starts over.

My boobs are itchy, and growing. And leaky? Is that supposed to happen already???

I am short of breath all the time.

I am at the 'fat' stage, but not yet at the 'preggo' stage in terms of how I look. I wear mat tops to show people I'm not just fat. I don't know if people get it.

I belch and I toot. Never at appropriate times. I blame it on Peanut, but maybe it's just that I'm not as careful as I used to be since I now have Peanut to blame it on?

I sleep when I should clean. I eat when I should sleep. I clean when I should eat. Lather, rinse, repeat.

I drop things. I forget things. I walk into things.

So ya. That's me right now!

Good stuff and not so good stuff.

I like knowing there is a little person baking in there, and that even though I feel like I have never really been that good at anything, my body is making something absolutely incredible. I am enjoying seeing my tummy changing, too. Oh...and I like to think I get away with more stuff because I'm pregnant, especially if I say "The baby made me do it", hehe.

The only things that stink are the things that I'm used to, but that I'm not supposed to do anymore. Things like taking hot showers or eating ham sandwiches, or drinking pop with aspartame...There is so much I SHOULDN'T do...There really are more 'don'ts' than 'do's' and it's actually hard to keep track of it all! I figure that whatever it is, it can't be THAT bad, because there sure are a lot of people in the world, and I'm sure that someone's mom somewhere had that caesar salad with raw egg in the dressing without knowing it was bad and the baby lived. Stupid rules anyway.

Hormones are wreaking havoc.

Here are the things that made me upset or angry today:

*Having to stand on the bus.
*Girl on bus with knapsack steadily swinging into me.
*Teenagers giggling in fake high pitched squeals.
*Lady on elevator who pushed "tickets" when everyone else was going to "buses."
*Lady on subway noisily cracking open large sunflower seed things (that weren't sunflower seeds) and then spitting the shells on the floor and the seat between us.
*People with ugly sunglasses.
*People with pierced lips, but only because it irritates my lips to think of it.
*Smelly man on subway hitting me with his newspaper.
*Bank machine out of order.
*Slush machine out of order at convenience store.
*BBQ sauce on grilled chicken on top of my caesar salad.
*Messy haired people.
*Too many dishes in the sink at work. Why do people need to use 5 mugs a day? (I usually wind up washing the office dishes)
*Hangnail snagging on my scarf and hurting.
*Pants keep falling down.
*Bus letting me off in a puddle.
*Getting a phone call that I had to investigate by going all the way out through the warehouse and outside to ask someone about, and when I came back she had hung up.
....and so much more that I can't remember.


Conversely, there were things that made me feel insanely happy and well adjusted:

*Crowded like sardines in a can on the elevator this morning. I was thinking how nice it was to have so many neighbours. A man sneezed, and I said bless you. He looked surprised, smiled big, and said a hearty "thank you!"
*A bird singing its guts out in a tree.
*A moment of sun this morning that made my face feel warm.
*Talking to Joe on the phone and he was in a great mood.
*Putting my spaceheater on at work and pointing it at my cold toes.
*A colleague retied the string at the back of my blouse for me.
*Another colleague got my memory card from my camera out of my printer cuz I couldn't get it with my nails.

God I'm weird today!

I can't breathe!!

I seem to be somewhat short of breath lately. I'm not gasping for air or anything, but I seem to find myself needing to take a deep breath every few minutes. I just need more oxygen. Is this normal or am I just weird? I know it's normal much later in the game, but it seems like this is WAYYYY too early!

The Empress' New Clothes

In light of the changing tummy, I felt it was time to celebrate by getting some new clothes. It was off to Old Navy for me. I bought a pair of mat jeans and three T-shirts. It's nice to have stuff to wear, even though it's pretty early for them. I am wearing the jeans now anyway because they haven't got the big panel at the front, just the elastic gathering at the waist. I wear them with a belt, and you can't tell they are mat, plus they are sooooo comfy because they don't put pressure on my tummy. I am still at the in between stage where my regular pants don't fit without doing magic tricks with elastics, and mat stuff is still a bit big. I really can't wait until I start to look pregnant instead of just chunky!!