My tummy is changing

After seeing my baby during the u/s, I was already feeling beyond...WAYYY beyond ecstatic, but now I can feel my tummy is changing shape, and this for me is ALSO very exciting. Unfortunately, I am still not at the "pregnant looking" stage. In fact, there is very little difference in how I look, but when I touch low on my tummy just above my pelvic bone, I can feel a change. It's really starting to properly sink in now. It's true!! It's for real!! I'm gonna have a baby!

How crazy am I? Really. Don't be shy. On a scale of one to ten, one being sane....

Ultrasound Day!

I was all upset because Joe couldn't be there for my first ultrasound. My mommy took me, though, so that was cool.

So. I was to drink 6 glasses of water by 12:00pm, and then my appointment was for 1:20. Mom picked me up at 12:15, and I already had to pee. I drank nearly a full 1.5 litre bottle of Evian. I figured that was about 6 glasses if I figured each glass was about 1 cup of water. By the time we got there, (WAYYYYY early at about 12:30) I was FREAKING. I thought I was gonna wet my pants! Luckily, the u/s tech guy was able to take me early. As soon as he touched the wand to my belly and looked at the screen, he said "Little girl, you gotta go empty the tank a bit! Your bladder is WAY too full!! Don't worry, you can't make a mistake, the baby is big enough that I can see it just fine, so go until you feel comfortable." So off I went to the little girl's room, and I tried to pee a bit, but not all. Well, let me tell you, when you're bursting as I was, this is not an easy task, but I felt better after. When I got back to the room, he started over, and had a good look around. He said the size of the baby was just right, and that it looked perfect. All of a sudden my mom goes "Oh my God!! Is that a little HAND!?" Sure enough, he said it was, and took a picture for me. The screen was kind of turned away from me, so I couldn't see it very well, but I was looking at my mom's face, and she was grinning like a cheshire cat, but all misty eyed. She saw the baby's little heart just beating away even before I could get a good look. Near the end after checking the heartrate (167 beats per minute) he turned the screen so I could see. Wow. It was amazing. The little heart was all a flutter. Soooo amazing. But he said we wouldn't be able to hear it well, so he never tried. So. I did not hear the heartbeat, and even though I was a bit upset about that, I SAW it, and that was just fine with me. I don't think I have ever seen anything that wonderful, EVER.

As we were leaving the office, (it was about 1:10) I called Joe to tell him that there really IS a peanut! He said his boss had taken pity on him and gave him the rest of the day off, and he was already on his way over. He was sooo disappointed because he missed it anyway. Poor guy. But we met up for lunch and he saw the pics, and my mom told him all about what she saw, and how amazing it was, so hopefully he got a good idea of it, even if he didn't get the full visual. He just sat there all through lunch with this faraway smile on his face. It was so cute. You really had to see it.

After lunch, Mom was off to do shopping, and Joe took me to see Dr. Marcovitz for my physical. After taking half my blood she got out a doppler, and Joe and I got to hear the heartbeat. It was so amazing to hear, and also to see Joe's face split into such a humongous grin. I haven't seen him happy like that since the wedding.

So that was my long convoluted story about my u/s. I know...You want pics. Well then. Without further ado, may I introduce my little Peanut, measuring 6 cm, and weighing in at under an ounce.

My baby.

More Ultrasound Nerves...

Tomorrow is my ultrasound, and I am a nervous wreck. I am so excited, but there is a part of me that is worried that I won't hear that heartbeat. Even though I tell myself that I am sure everything is just fine, I feel so good, no morning sickness, no real complaints at all, I still keep worrying that something might be wrong. I am just thankful that my mommy can come with me and keep me sane. Am I being a nutcase, or is this normal???

First Ultrasound Coming Up...Nervous.

I am scheduled to go for my first ultrasound on Monday. I am both excited and nervous all at the same time. I am soooo excited to hear the baby's heartbeat, but scared at the same time in case I don't hear it, you know? The sucky thing is that Joe can't be there, as even though he tried every possible option, he still can't get the time off work. Apparently a lot of guys are off that day already since they had it booked because of the long weekend, and FedEx can't afford to be down yet another guy. He's really upset about it, as am I, but there really is no way around it. Luckily for me, my mom is able to come, so at least I don't have to go all alone. I hope I will be able to get a picture or something to bring home for Joe. I feel so bad for him since this is just as big for him as it is for me!

Fun new developments. Joy!

Today I woke up, and I thought "Whoa...did my boobs grow even more overnight?" (After checking myself out for a bit, and looking at them from every conceivable angle, I did actually go to work.) But oh, the glory! Growing boobles! I thought I was done with that at 18, but yay! Pregnancy does have it's magic. Unfortunately, this type of magic seems to have come with a price. I am now getting stabbing pains every now and again. They pass almost as quickly as they come, but wow. SOOO not fun while they last! And ITCHY!! OMG, SOOOO itchy! Every now and then at work I have to pull a mission impossible and scratch.

Just one of the ways I pay for our gift, I guess. So very very worth it.

How Peanut Became Peanut

The baby is only about the size of a peanut, but I've got a names list. And a book. And some websites... but we seem to be ok with what we have chosen so far. Ethan John for a boy and Ella Carolina for a girl. Who knows. We may look at our little peanut when she/he is born and say "nope, doesn't fit" but for now, we're happy with our choices.

Maybe we'll just name him/her Peanut. That would settle things nicely!

Suggestion Cravings

I have been having a "suggestion craving" type thing rather than the normal type. I also get a word association craving thing which is sort of related...This is how my Cheesies craving came about...

Me to Joe: "I love youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu"
Joe: "I love you toooooooooooo"
Me: "Oh man! We are so cheesy!!....Mmmmm...Can you pick up some Cheesies?"

Still preggo!

Feel quite terrific other than the gas, and the fact that suddenly none of my clothes fit...

I have an u/s booked for the 28th, so I am looking forward to it sooooo much. I can't wait to hear a heartbeat and know that things are as they should be.

Ya, so that's the update for me.

ARGH!! Hormones!

March 3rd entry.

I am unusually irritable lately. I want to tell people who bug me to piss off half the time, which is not like me. It was even bugging me how much I was letting people bug me. I thought it was maybe stress or something.

Today, though...TODAY takes the cake. We were coming home from watching BIL play hockey, and I had the hugest laughing fit that I have ever had in my life. Over nothing at all! And I couldn't stop! I was doubled over with tears squirting outta my eyes, laughing so hard I was nearly choking. I seriously thought I was going to laugh till I puked, and the whole time, I was asking myself what the hell was so funny. Poor Joe was trying to get me out of the garage and into the elevator, the whole time just looking at me like I was mental, which was ALSO hilariously funny to me...Just his expression. Pure and utter confuddlement. He's probably right. I think I AM going mental!

How's THAT for hormones?!

I'm feeling...

I feel amazing. I don't know if that's cause for worry or not, but it seems that most of the icky things are over with now. I don't get as queasy in the evenings, the dreaded constipation has pretty much passed thanks to Metamucil and I'm feeling less tired... My only complaints at the moment are that I am feeling gassy and bloated a lot, and I can't take much by way of irritation. I want to smack ppl at work sometimes, but then again, it's been pretty crazy here lately, so it might not be related. Other than that, I feel just fine. Another fabulous bonus is that my skin seems to be staying clear since there are no periods to bring on the zits! Yahoo!